A raw, textured wall covered in handwritten phrases. In the center, large: HELP I'M NOT OK. Around it, smaller phrases like depressed, anxious, falling apart, alone, and worthless.

For when you're not okay, and tired of pretending you are.

You can smile through Sunday and still come home heavy.

I've been there too, and I made this for you. Watch the short video below.

You don't have to have it all together to be okay. And you're not as alone in this as it feels.

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A free program from John Fowler. We're just getting started.

You know how to answer "How are you?" without really answering it.

Fine. Good. Hanging in there. You say it on a Sunday morning, in the grocery line, to the people who love you most. And underneath it, something is heavy. Maybe it has been for a while.

Church can be a hard place to say that out loud. Everyone looks like they're doing well. So you put on a face, you sing along, and you take the weight back home with you, and you're still alone with it.

If that's you right now, I'm glad you're here. You can set the face down for a minute.

What this is

You don't have to pretend to get through this.

"Help, I'm Not Okay" is a free program about just that. About being able to say you're not okay, and finding your way back to hope without faking it.

It started as five sermons. Now it's a short book, thirteen chapters, and you can take it one piece at a time.

It's not a fix-it plan or a list of steps to get your life back in order. It's room to be honest about where you are, and a way through the hard season with your faith. The kind of thing I'd say to you sitting across a table, not from a stage.

What you'll get

Real help, said plainly.

John Fowler — a warm outdoor portrait, the kind of person who'd sit across the table from you.

About John

I wrote this because I've needed it too.

I'm John Fowler. I'm a pastor, and I write.

I wrote "Help, I'm Not Okay" because I was tired of watching good people hurt in silence while they acted like everything was fine. And because I've needed it myself.

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Leave your name and email. I'll send you more about "Help, I'm Not Okay" and let you know when the free beta opens. It's free, and there's no pressure. Just a note from me when it's ready.

Free. No spam. Just me, letting you know when it's ready.

Thank you. You're in.

I'll be in touch with more about "Help, I'm Not Okay," and I'll let you know when the free beta opens.